Behind Your Back
In the story hole in my life by Jack Gantos, this man goes from being a smart, sophisticated young man to a paranoid drug dealer. When he first tried marijuana, he found it disgusting, not only because of the fact that it made him frightened and paranoid, but it "made me feel as if I weren’t myself anymore," (75 Gantos). He also began to feel as if the people around him, the people that he used to call friends, were just a sick parody of who they really were. After this not only does it seem that he promises himself that he will never be around those people again, but he makes a promise that he will never try the stuff again either, a promise that he, ultimately, does not keep.
As his father begins to not make enough money to sustain his family, Gantos must drop out of school to help his family make enough money to simply buy food. His friends push him into the drug business and do enough of the stuff to get him in his own halcyon world. He tries to escape the hardships of his life through these means and unfortunately brings him into the hash business. He starts selling the stuff to make money for his family and also begins to smoke it to even further him from reality, until he decides to sell bigger and larger amounts in drug mobs. He takes a large trip with his mob to sell a couple hundred pounds of it. He tells his family that it is a work related trip and leaves thinking that he is going to help them, but he really seems to just want to escape from his family to hide the guilt of what profession he really is doing.
Throughout the book he seems to be running from his consequences, and you only see him not acting foolish when he finally leaves his elysian to see what the world is like around him. Only then does Gantos see what type of person he has really become.
In the story hole in my life by Jack Gantos, this man goes from being a smart, sophisticated young man to a paranoid drug dealer. When he first tried marijuana, he found it disgusting, not only because of the fact that it made him frightened and paranoid, but it "made me feel as if I weren’t myself anymore," (75 Gantos). He also began to feel as if the people around him, the people that he used to call friends, were just a sick parody of who they really were. After this not only does it seem that he promises himself that he will never be around those people again, but he makes a promise that he will never try the stuff again either, a promise that he, ultimately, does not keep.
As his father begins to not make enough money to sustain his family, Gantos must drop out of school to help his family make enough money to simply buy food. His friends push him into the drug business and do enough of the stuff to get him in his own halcyon world. He tries to escape the hardships of his life through these means and unfortunately brings him into the hash business. He starts selling the stuff to make money for his family and also begins to smoke it to even further him from reality, until he decides to sell bigger and larger amounts in drug mobs. He takes a large trip with his mob to sell a couple hundred pounds of it. He tells his family that it is a work related trip and leaves thinking that he is going to help them, but he really seems to just want to escape from his family to hide the guilt of what profession he really is doing.
Throughout the book he seems to be running from his consequences, and you only see him not acting foolish when he finally leaves his elysian to see what the world is like around him. Only then does Gantos see what type of person he has really become.